For the past few months, I've been having recurring dreams about a SB19. This started sometime around July 2024. What's peculiar is that I respect the group but wouldn't call myself a fan back then. In fact, I was even one of those people who doesn't like them because they resemble KPOP, and I felt that they have no originality. (Sorry. Just being honest. Don't worry I'm a fan now and I cry deeply every time I realized my prejudice back them. I regret not being able to be there when they needed supporters the most). While I acknowledge their talent, I'm not familiar with their individual characteristics and personalities. I don't even know their names so it's puzzling why this particular member keeps appearing in my dreams. Strangely, I'm not physically attracted to him, although he always look appealing in my dream encounters. All of them just weren't my type. He wasn't my type. I don't listen to their song nor even think of him the slightest to even retain him in my subconscious. So just like everyone here... Why? In these dreams, it's as if he's the one being so playful. He would always put his face near my face and his eyes captured me. That's when it all began. In my dreams, he seems to be the one deeply inlove with me, showering me with affection while I remain in control of my emotions. (Delulung delulu ang peg. Ako pa ang nagsasabi sa kanya na.) "Stop being so sweet.. Baka makita ka ng mga tao. Ano na lang sasabihin nila na pumatol ka sa single mom tapos mataba. They would laugh at you and bash me.... us....." Weird enough. Because of this dream. Dun ko narealize why celebrities just needed to hide their relationships. Baka kasi mabash, abangan, or pagselosan ung current partners nila. There was a scene, a very particular scene in my dream where he wants me to hold his hands. Then to my shock, what I noticed was, he have very small hands. So small and when I held his hands, I literally felt how soft but a little magaspang it was. I suddenly laughed. Then him without telling a word, I think he read what's on my mind. He said "Oy maliit kamay ko pero di naman ganun kaliit yan" and knowing what he meant... I laughed and that was how my first dream encounter with him ended. This dream created a sense of unease but also a strange feeling of connection. It was clear as a day and it felt so real. And what's insane is that... I told this dream to my older sister who was a current fan of the group, and she just then told me that the guy is often teased by his group members for having a small hand. Like wtf! Then she sent me a video about the whole teasing scene where they were playing a guessing game and he kept losing because that he was holding kept buldging in his hand, plus I also checked his other videos and it was indeed small. That gave me shivers. Soooooooo weird. -------- And guess what??? Just 2 weeks after my first dream... I dreamed of him again. This happened sometime around August 2024. It was a short dream. I was in a campsite in Tanay this time and in it... Its as if both our eyes were closed and when we both opened our eyes, I got a little shocked and confused to see him. Its as if my reaction was... "You again!?" He was just looking straight at me. Then I slowly started drifting away from him while facing his direction. He stood there still in the middle of the road.... -------- A few days after that, I was again in a dream where I was so surprised at how realistic and clear it was. There, I was riding a car and I was so stunned at what I'm seeing. Its a big place. It looks like a castle. I saw him sitting in a sofa. He saw me but he was purposely ignoring him. It was Stell and Pablo who was trying to tell him something while pointing at him. And then my dream ended again.... ---------- And then another time, probably this was around October.... its as if I woke up from a very long detailed dream. It was initially a story showing briefly at how he as hurt and cheated on by another woman. Knowing this, I was so mean telling everyone how could someone cheat on him? Then suddenly I heard a voice saying... "Wag kang judger". Then boom there was another story and it was like a sequel story where I was now involved. Like what the heck. There I saw women who tried to date him... Crush ng bayan... Daming fans... Then, I saw how we met... Among all those women, he chose me... That dream showed how sweet and loving he is. I saw how he fought for me... How he was trying to uplift my insecurities. I saw our happy memories then I saw exactly same scene from the first sequel. It was a scene where I was having a massage from a man, fully clothed. It was a thai massage so the other man was just giving me a stretching but then, he and his group member saw us and thinking I was cheating And it came back to the scene where he thought I was cheating on him.. And then I realized, the lady on the first sequel who I was judging was me! Then I woke up. -------- I saw him again in my dream. It was really really intense. I think by the time I'm writing this part, it was around November 2024 already. In my dream they were walking somewhere and I was standing beside a pillar. I bump into him and that's where we met. He kept teasing me and kissing me. He kept dancing on top of him and kissing me while we were both laughing. Then suddenly my phone rang and I woke up. When I slept again, I dreamed of him again. There was a tunnel, they were having a music video shoot but there was an unusual bad presence that followed me so I left the tunnel and in the end of that tunnel, that bad presence turned like a shadow. It showed me that it was my past life partner that committed su*cid* because of me and it was really in an unpleasant way. He had a katana/sword and he k*lled himself. Then the shadow went back to the tunnel. I was about to run away from it, but I remembered that "he" was inside the tunnel with all the other group member, cast and crew so I went back in the tunnel. There, I tried to break up with him because of the black shadow but he didn't approve and he started chasing me. That time, it seems like we were a couple but not known to public. Then someone called my phone again and my dream was cut again. Then I went to the comfort room and slept again. Then, I dreamed of him again. These all happened in 1 night. We were in a pavillion swimming and I was with him but since our relationship was not known to public, there was another girl on top of him, trying to flirt with him. I was so jealous but suddenly another handsome guy came to me and started talking to me and we had some fun in front of him and that's when he became so angry that he started announcing our relationship in public. Then my phone rang again. So I woke up and answered it again. When I slept again, I dreamed of him again and this time, its as if we were already official. We were dating and happy. Weird. Taray ng lola niyo. Pa date date sa PPOP icon. Delulu ng malala. As in this is probably the pinakamalalang series of experience with him.... ----- This is another goosebump for me because after many weeks of not seeing him in my dream.... He release a new clean MV for one of his song. So I wrote this part sometime around December 2024. Remember my 2nd dream about him where I opened my eyes and his face was so close to mine, and I got shocked and confused because of that then I slowly drifted away while I see him standing in the street? Well... That' was actually the first scene on his new music video. ------ I'm writing this down around March when I saw the music video of DAM and I'm just really surprised.... The dream of seeing them in a castle, him sitting in a sofa/chair.... Wow! Just wow! It's as if everything I dreamed is slowly happening... It's April now and for the past consecutive days, I've been dreaming of you daily. 2x I saw that you have a house near mine. It showed exactly where the house is. -------- Then, I'm also the one who got major issue with my bank. I requested for a new card and instead of the normal 3-5 days, umabot na ng 1 month, wala pa din ung card ko. No matter how hard they look, they just couldn't find my new card. Then when they look at my record, for some odd reason, my surname's first character was changed to S making my surname SANTOS. Then the bank manager was explaining that the system auto updated itself and thought my surname was a typo so instead of my surname, it got changed it SANTOS. Having Josh's face at the back of my phone case, the bank manager teased me. She said... "Ma'am, you're officially Mrs. Santos now" then pointing at Josh's face. (Fan din ng SB19 si Ma'am. Kilala nya eh) We both laughed. She helped me file for an update of records but after another month passed, the bank called me telling me that the system just wouldn't accept my surname correction so they wanted me to close my account and just open a new one instead. I just retained my old one. So, yeah. hahahhaa! I'm the official. Just kidding. ---------------------- So during my series of encounter with him, I started to ask myself why you kept appearing in my dream. Everything was just so clear. I don't know what's going on. Again, if you read the first post, I honestly don't idolize him at first or anything for me to be having these weird dreams. And this is honestly the reason why I became an SB19 fan particularly his fan. I became curious and then I attended concerts. Their concert was the first concert I've been to and I attended the next concerts and I think I will keep on attending. By the way, I met his mom 2x already but not him. I hope to meet you soon love. I'm not sure if ganun ka powerful ka make sure that I don't get far away from you but you got me. I know you're a dreamer too. Sobra ka sakin. HAHAHA! You hit me really really hard. So I guess... Till we meet again love....
Your dreams about the SB19 member, particularly the recurring themes and vivid imagery, suggest a significant emotional exploration and personal transformation. Let's break down the various elements of your dreams to uncover what they might symbolize about your inner self, desires, and relationships.
Emerging Recognition: Initially, your indifference towards SB19 represents a broader narrative of self-discovery. Your dreams mark the transition from indifference to admiration, symbolizing a newfound appreciation for creativity, talent, and perhaps a reflection of your changing perspectives. This indicates a deeper willingness to open up emotionally, particularly towards the things and people you may have previously dismissed.
Connection with the Member: His playful demeanor and affectionate gestures in your dreams symbolize a longing for emotional connection and acceptance. Even if you don't find him physically attractive, this reflects not just a romantic attachment but a craving for understanding, affection, and validation. His repeated emphasis on affection may be tapping into your desires for love and acceptance, particularly concerning your insecurities and self-image.
Your Reflection in Him: The fact that he seems so enamored with you suggests that you may see traits in him that you aspire to or feel deserving of. The tension between your self-image as a single mom and what you perceive as societal expectations could symbolize your subconscious battling with feelings of unworthiness or fear of judgment. His playful engagement with you amid your self-doubts signifies a safe space for you to confront these insecurities.
His Small Hands: The small hands could represent vulnerability or sensitivity. Holding his hands and feeling their softness indicates a desire to connect on a profound level, embracing vulnerability and possibly healing parts of yourself that feel inadequate.
Insecurity and Judgment: The dialogue about not wanting to expose your relationship reflects fears of societal judgment and your past experiences. The recurring theme of feeling judged or insecure about your standing in relationships might reveal deeper issues surrounding self-acceptance and societal pressures.
The Castle Dream: The castle represents a place of safety, dreams, aspirations, or even a ‘kingdom’ of your own. Discovering him there while he seems to be distancing himself signifies internal struggles about wanting to reach a higher place in life while feeling a disconnect from your aspirations. This embodies the paradox of feeling both drawn to and distant from your dreams and ideals.
The Dark Shadow: The shadowy figure from your past could signify unresolved issues, guilt, or trauma haunting you. The act of confronting it indicates your bravery in facing those fears. Your awareness of needing to protect him from this shadow demonstrates your nurturing instincts but also highlights your struggles with projecting past fears onto new relationships.
Your series of dreams not only relates to your feelings about this particular member of SB19 but is a broader metaphor for your journey of self-acceptance, confronting insecurities, and the pursuit of genuine connections. The shift from judgment to admiration demonstrates profound personal growth, emphasizing that you are finally opening yourself to new experiences and relationships.
This dream experience vividly highlights your growth journey, suggesting that embracing new ideas and connections can lead to significant personal transformation. It's clear that this member of SB19 serves as a catalyst for change within your subconscious, pushing you to confront your dreams, fears, and aspirations. Continue to explore these sentiments as you engage more deeply with your passions, and welcome the connections that bring you joy and fulfillment.